Almost time for another one...

And another what, 3 weeks go by without a post... Sheesh. Vegas was amazing, and Jamie and I had a great time... We were kind enough to leave a generous donation in the casino, and enjoyed some R&R (and cheesecake factory, best spinach dip ever!!)and overall just had a really nice time. Scary time too though... My period was 2 days late, and it was a pretty stressful time waiting for it to show up... As much as we'd love to have kids NOW, I'm still on my eye drops, and I had been drinking, so it would have been really bad timing.

Speaking of eye drops, I can't wait to be done with them... I think I have about 2 months left, and then it's done! I'm so glad I got the surgery though, it has been amazing!! Kinda sucks waking up with dry eyes in the mornings, but overall it's really not bad. So weird to just be able to SEE... And not need contacts.

So up next, we have a caribbean cruise, which we leave for on Saturday with my parents... I can't wait. I've been working out really hard at the gym lately too, and I hope it makes a little bit of a difference... I know I should have started a long time ago, but it's better than nothing!

After we get back, it's only a couple weeks until Christmas, and then we're off into a new year, which will hopefully bring us a positive pregnancy test sooner rather than later!! I can't wait <3

Bring on December!

Almost Vegas Time!!!

I really forget to post here all the time... So I'm going to try to update more often, but maybe not post as much. Jamie and I are off to Vegas on Saturday! I wasn't going to get a loaner pump, because I figured in Vegas it would be easy enough to get a pump to me should something go wrong. I called Animas to order an extra battery cap and cartridge cap, and mentioned that I was going to Vegas... Apparently Animas Canada does NOT ship to the States! Sooo, I ordered a loaner pump (for Vegas and the Cruise)and it should be coming tomorrow or the next day! I'm terrified that I will lose it, but it will go straight into the safe from our carry-on and it will be sent back to Animas as soon as I'm back from the trips!

I really want to get a one touch mini for the trips, but I don't think I have time to get one... I can always bring along my spare Contour meter, I think I still have 100 strips left over for it!

Jamie and I are going to get back on the TTC train before we know it, hopefully early in the new year... Just gotta get done with these silly eye drops! But I think I need to make another appt with the clinic and get everything back up to where I was operating before. January 1st is my turnaround day, and then it's all diabetes, all planning for baby. I will be focused!!!!! I've been really slacking on writing down everything (although my numbers are still really good) and the new year will be the perfect time to start buckling down. I'm going to technically be on the drpos until February, but it will only be 1X/ day from January 6th on... So I'm not too worried about TTC with the drops, and I will just stop them if I do actually get pregnant. But I'm going to google this a little bit more, those drops are a little bit scary. :)

Anyways, watching the biggest loser, so back to that!

Diabetes Burnout

Ahhh, already I feel like I'm back in the world of diabetes burnout. I love my pump, and I love what it can do for me, but I find myself getting almost depressed over my diabetes at times since I've gone back on. Something about being connected to it 24/7 and maybe the fact that I've had a string of iffy infusion sets for the past couple weeks is really wearing on me.

It's hard, I know that pumping is the best thing for me. I love that I can sleep in, and when I have a baby in the future I will never remember to take my Lantus so it's great to have that.... but it just feels like I can NEVER get away from it. I was thinking about when we're going to Vegas again, and just the fact that I can't just go to the pool without something hanging off of me is a little bit grating. Same thing with the cruise... I'm not shy about my pump at all, I just kind of wish it's not something I had to deal with while out at the beach. I have all these cute dresses that I've bought recently and none of them look right anymore with the pump. There is always going to be that lump under my clothing. I know I'm probably the only one who notices it, but it still bothers me.

I dunno, maybe there's underlying stuff going on recently that could be bringing me down, but I feel very debbie downer about stuff as of late. On the other side, we have Vegas in 2.5 weeks, and the cruise in just over a month :) That is for sure something to look forward to.

I'm going to try to update this more, I've really 'fallen off the wagon'... I haven't been keeping track of my carbs or counting them as accurately as before, and I cancelled my most recent Dr's appt (because of a laser eye surgery follow up appt) and I haven't rebooked it. I've been going to the diabetes in pregnancy clinic @ the hospital for about the last 10 months, and I kind of want to just go to a normal dr's appt... I don't really feel like filling out these gigantic forms right now, as I'll have to fill them out religously for however long it takes for us to conceive, and then throughout my entire pregnancy as well.

Bah, sorry, I feel like I'm just whining in this post, not my style for sure. Hopefully Vegas will bring me out of my funk soon!

Moving along..

This is a short update - not much new to report! Pumping is going great, aside from a ripped out infusion set in the bed which turned out to be a bleeder... Yuck. Little bit of a shock for sure.

Life in general is plunking along, I have my pre-op for laser eye surgery tomorrow afternoon, and assuming all goes well (which it should) I will be getting the surgery sometime Thursday afternoon! After that, my Mom and I are going to Victoria on Saturday, she's doing the Victoria marathon, and I'm doing a wimpy 8km run while she's doing hers. I'm pretty excited though, we're going to go to the museum and fun stuff like that.

After that, of course it will be 1 month from VEGAS! And then 2 weeks til the cruise... I can't wait for the next few months, so much great stuff going on. After Vegas or the cruise (haven't decided excactly where yet), Jamie and I will finally actually starting looking at having kids again soon... We are ready anytime, but at the same time, we have no problem with putting it on hold, we're both so young, we have lots of time.

Anyways, I'm trying to burn a DVD from my video camera of Holly's first 6 months with us... I'm using the iMac to do it, and it is being prettyyyy dumb. You would think that a program called iDVD would be able to do a simple DVD, but it will only play one 'clip' at a time... There is no way to just make it play through! I gotta figure out some way to work around it, I'm not impressed!! Hopefully I figure it out eventually!

Batteries and Infusion Sites

Wow, time is really flying by! I am less than a week away from no more contacts! I have to wear my glasses (boo) for two weeks, and then it's pre-op and operation (assuming everything looks good in the pre-op of course). My Mom and I are enrolled in some wonderful running a couple days after the surgery as well. She's doing a full marathon (impressive!) and I'm doing an 8km run at the same time, because I'd feel lazy just standing around for 5-6 hours waiting for her to finish... I called the Lasik clinic and they said as long as I don't sweat into my eyeballs, I should be just fine for the run.

I had a little bit of a battery issue with my pump over the weekend... My battery was showing as completely full until late Friday afternoon, when it dropped to 2/3's. I figured I'd get about another 5 days out of it and didn't think anything of it. On Saturday after we got in around 10:45 my pump all of the sudden alarmed and said that the battery was low and to change now. I figured it was just getting a little ahead of itself and decided I'd deal with it the next day. I mean it had JUST gone to 2/3, surely I'd be able to get a few more days out of it. Not the case, Jamie woke me up at 3:30 because my pump was alarming its face off. Luckily he's a light sleeper because there is no way that would wake me up. Anyways, in a sleepy stupor I tried seeing what was going on with the silly thing and the screen is BLACK. I can't touch anything, and the alarm will NOT shut up. I don't know if my basal was still continuing or what. I went downstairs and changed out the battery (thank god I had some double A's sitting around!) and went back to bed, none too pleased. I got 4 weeks out of the battery, so that's not a big problem, but I really do not like that it just died within 36 hours, when it had been showing as completely full. My meter remote is a little bit sketchy too. The battery was showing as 2/3 on some screens and fully charged on some other screens. It started giving me 'change battery' messages, which I ignored initially because the screens still showed as fully charged. After getting the message 3 times (and still getting 2/3 or 3/3 on the screens) I bit the bullet and changed the batteries. I got the change battery screen about 4 hours after changing them, so I have no idea why that came up, as they are brand new batteries. Since then everything looks okay, but I am not happy with these battery issues. I'll see how it goes with what's in there right now and if it drops drastically again, I'm calling tech support. What if I wasn't home? It only gave me 3 hours before my pump was completly 100% not responding at all dead. That is unbelievable, and pretty dangerous if you ask me.

Other thing on my mind is placement of the infusion sets. I love my 'side' areas the best, on my love handles (haha) and my side-stomach essentially. I switch left-front, right-front, left-back, right-back each time. I have the most trouble with areas that tend to bend when I sit down. I put one in today and the adhesive kind of crinkles almost where my skin seems to be bending. I hope it sticks in there well, because I'm worried about it just peeling up. I would use pretty much the exact same spots every time, but I don't want to get any scar tissue. So far my sites look great (can only really see a tiny dot and only for a day or so after) but I'm just worried.

bah, stressful.

oooh, forgot to mention!

I must talk about our latest diabetes accident in the home!

Jamie was kind enough to help me change my infusion set last week, and he was pumping air in and out of the cartridge to lube it up before filling it with insulin. I was just walking over to tell him I didn't quite need the cartridge filled when all of the sudden there was a yelp and a LOT of blood... He was dripping blood all over the floor, it was pooling in his palm, it was pretty gruesome! Turns out when he was pulling air in, he somehow popped off the needle cap, and when he was pumping air out, he went through his ring finger and into his middle finger.

Yuck. I had done that about 3-4 years into pumping back in the day, so I figured something similar would happen again one day, but not so soon, and not to Jamie!! Poor hubby :(

Luckily, he's all healed now, and at least it was a nice brand new sterile needle! I wonder what the next diabetic injury will be... I haven't pulled out an infusion set on a door handle yet, I'm thinking that's next on the list!

Oh insurance...

Finally I got that letter from Standard Life today... I could finally pay my Mom back for the pump, which she was nice enough to put on her Credit Card. I sent everything in probably 2 weeks ago... Today I open the envelope and a big fat "DENIED" written on the page. They even issued me a cheque for $0!!! Written on there it says that they need proof of payment, and that 'it isn't their policy to issue cheques directly to the vendor' something along those lines.

Now what I don't understand, is how my invoice with 'prepaid in full by visa' doesn't count as proof of payment. Bah, so annoyed. Hopefully I can call them tomorrow and they will open their eyes and realize that I DID send proof of payment. Or else Animas sent me the wrong receipt, which would be a whole other can of worms. I'm still waiting to hear back from them about ordering supplies, it's been close to a month I've been waiting for the girl to call me back. I've called and spoken to THREE other people as well who said they would get me an answer ASAP and still nothing.

I'm really hoping this isn't something I should expect from Animas in the future, and I get this all sorted out soon.

Other than that, life is good! I accidently disconnected my pump in my sleep Saturday night, so I ran high pretty much all Sunday morning... No idea how I disconnected overnight, I've never done that before! Other than that, my bloods been pretty good. I'm taking it a little bit more easy, because we've put off TTC for a few more months, but we'll see.

PS: ONE month til laser eye surgery!!!! Can't wait!!!